How do you figure out who you are?
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m on auto-pilot -“Lately” is ever since I came home from vacation. I don’t know why I feel like my life suddenly feels a bit useless and that I’m constantly counter-productive.
I really hate to write posts like these. I always feel like there’s too much negativity in this world and in my surroundings. We all know pain exist in this world, why are we focusing on it so much? Why am I?
Stress is slowly creeping into my life again, and I do want to welcome it because it always have given me a little meaning to life. But I’m stressed constantly about my family and I frequently am questioning my blurry identity..
As I’m trying to figure myself out I’ve signed myself up for an intensive Deutsch-learning-course starting next week. And already in October I might be flying back to Thailand again to fetch my mom who is on rehab and make sure she can safely return home to Sweden.
I have to learn to be strong again and to change my unhealthy mindset. I can’t expect my well-being as well as my wish for my mother’s well-being to get better if I sit around being sad!
It’s one of those days where one feel down for not very obvious reasons, like you’re in a cold pit with a safe-life-line right beside you. Anyway, I hope you have a great day, I know I’ll get out of my bad ones soon! Hear from you later 🙂